like a diver with strong kicks surfacing
or a colt being born
shaking off the webbed sticky placenta
to stagger around, hungry,
insulted, more than a little drunk,
I drive my fury upward
out of L.A.
I had forgotten the face of reality,
the blue-eyed sky
uncompromising as a stripper ~
wisps of cloud
stuck here and there for propriety
fail to hide the fact
there will be no rain
molten air flows against me ~
I can't breathe for heat
can't see for brightness,
yet I have reached a conclusion
after thirteen years
chasing what wasn't there ~
staring into the sun
won't blind me